Oh, how she loved to be home
"Oh, How she Loved to be Home"
"I sought the Lord, and he answered me; he delivered me from all my fears." Psalm 34:4
Let’s start a club. It’s called “The Stay At Home Club”. Who’s joining? 🥂🧐
Did you know that a few years ago, it wasn’t my choice that I wanted to stay home all the time? Don’t get me wrong, my love for staying home was there - but I was paralyzed by my anxiety. I would sometimes not be able to get out of the bed. The anxiety was so extreme, sometimes I didn’t even take Aiyana to school. For days in a row. If you know me, you know how much I take pride in being a mama, so something this extreme would show you just how paralyzing that anxiety was. It was like a rock on top of my heart and brain.
There was no reason why I didn’t want to leave, I just couldn’t. I was too scared and I just needed to stay in a safe space. I didn’t tell anyone really because how can you tell someone you’re scared to leave the house for NO REASON!! Talk about being trapped and unable to do anything. If you’ve never experienced anxiety or depression, you’re probably judging me but it’s MY truth and there might just be someone at home now trapped by that same anxiety. Missing work, missing life. I prayed and prayed and found a doctor who just got me. Who understood I wasn’t crazy and a few years later - I’m no longer captive to that anxiety or depression. Mental health is real, y’all. And you have to take care of yourself, especially when they are things you genuinely can’t help.
Do you know how HARD it is to be depressed or anxious for NO reason. When people say what’s wrong - you have nothing.
I’ve been there. It sucks, but there is hope. Stay at home because you CHOOSE to. If you’re not quite there yet and still dealing with those anxieties, I wanna pray for you. It gets better I promise.
BUT - All are welcome in this club. Let’s stay home together, y’all. But by choice.
Whatever spectrum you’re on, show yourself just enough grace today to get you to tomorrow. I’m rooting for ya!